And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
You shouldn't have done it. You should have split.
Shut up, you.
Their paring off already. You've seen Giant and Hobo Trainer already, you better hurry.
I don't need to pair off. I have he love of a girl back home.
Yeah, tell yourself that. You haven't been sure of that relationship for months now.
...
Besides, it's not like the two of you fucked or anything.
That wasn't her fault, and what makes you think that it would be any better here?
Of course it is. Go out and get plastered, and have a late night in an upsatirs of a frat house, it'll do ya some good.
Never. And you should know better.
Why not? One drunken bang, and 'poof', no more sex phobia.
You don't know that, and when have I ever been known to get plastered, anyway?
...
Thought so... God I miss her. How the hell do the other guys deal with it?
Look, forget them. You and I both know that this is doomed. You've barely survived the first week up here, and it will be two YEARS before she will be a student here. Face it, it's over.
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The voice in my head and I have never got aong very well...
I love Merna. That I know.
Unfortunatley it seems to be the only thing I seem to be sure of anymore. I can't help that she would be better off with somebody else. Somebody who could be there with her, and not eight hours away, somebody who coud understand her better.
Somebody she could have sex with.
It all keeps coming back to that, doesn't it? I think that it may be time to see a professiona about this. I don't know. Not that there is all that much of a rush, I won't be down there until Thanksgiving. Shit.
Other than that, it must be said that college freaking rocks. Of course, class hasn't started yet, but other than that, this has been pretty damn fun. I've made some pretty cool friends already, and its nice to be on my own now.
More on how university life is cool later, for it is well past midnight and I have a 9:05 psych class tomorrow. ((First class of the year))
Goodnight All
Shut up, you.
Their paring off already. You've seen Giant and Hobo Trainer already, you better hurry.
I don't need to pair off. I have he love of a girl back home.
Yeah, tell yourself that. You haven't been sure of that relationship for months now.
...
Besides, it's not like the two of you fucked or anything.
That wasn't her fault, and what makes you think that it would be any better here?
Of course it is. Go out and get plastered, and have a late night in an upsatirs of a frat house, it'll do ya some good.
Never. And you should know better.
Why not? One drunken bang, and 'poof', no more sex phobia.
You don't know that, and when have I ever been known to get plastered, anyway?
...
Thought so... God I miss her. How the hell do the other guys deal with it?
Look, forget them. You and I both know that this is doomed. You've barely survived the first week up here, and it will be two YEARS before she will be a student here. Face it, it's over.
~~~
The voice in my head and I have never got aong very well...
I love Merna. That I know.
Unfortunatley it seems to be the only thing I seem to be sure of anymore. I can't help that she would be better off with somebody else. Somebody who could be there with her, and not eight hours away, somebody who coud understand her better.
Somebody she could have sex with.
It all keeps coming back to that, doesn't it? I think that it may be time to see a professiona about this. I don't know. Not that there is all that much of a rush, I won't be down there until Thanksgiving. Shit.
Other than that, it must be said that college freaking rocks. Of course, class hasn't started yet, but other than that, this has been pretty damn fun. I've made some pretty cool friends already, and its nice to be on my own now.
More on how university life is cool later, for it is well past midnight and I have a 9:05 psych class tomorrow. ((First class of the year))
Goodnight All
11:57 AM
All I can say is try not to worry about it. I changed unimaginably during my college years. Everyone does. When I started college I was a total introvert perfectionist--never drank, or even raised my voice. I had very little experience with guys. I stayed true to myself, but managed to finish as a different person coming out of it. Don't box yourself in or make any vast proclamations just yet! I promise you-- you'll be surprised by who you'll become and what will happen. Give it time. top
4:27 PM
You are still very young, my friend. Hyde's right, you needn't worry. All will come to you in time.
And as much as I'm sure you do love Merna (I was in love at 16) you are too bloody young to form any kind of meaningful attatchment, trust me. top
5:04 PM
*Shigh* The worst part is that I now that, and agree with you, all three of you. It still makes me frustrated. top